Still damned

I guess it was no surprise that we get a call a little before 5pm today, saying that the driver for tonight has not shown up for his shift and therefore he was going to be fired. Which means Chris has to be called and save Godfathers ass once again. Tonight she had requested it off to be able to go with me to my PH court and find out if I would be off the dismembership and be welcomed back into fellowship again. We had an argument as she headed out the door. I told her that we can have it rescheduled, and she didn't want that. This is for my salvation. Whatever that may mean anymore. So now not only has her job screwed me from my work, it has now screwed me from ever being in the church again, and having it all back. I guess there really is a Satan, who is throwing the wrench into everything that was good in my life and turning it to shit. I don't even care if she does get the WY store or not. Jon may not buy it at all and still the same screwing Chris is getting from GF is still going on. I guess what i have told Chris from the very beginning is true, I am a damned soul. I am bound for Hell. It is my destiny.