Progress

No matter what, a little progress is something to celebrate. I messaged a friend that called me then we set up an appointment to tell this morning. What I got out of it was good. I just needed someone to listen and hear me. I think I can do it. It is just baby steps. Little steps put together make a big step forward in the right direction. More bigger steps and more closer to being able to deal with all emotions and feelings. I may still have my blue and bad days. It will be how I feel with those days is what others will remember later. I made the one step today. To talk to someone. Next is getting the help I need to carry me forward. I am not doing it for my kids, nor my wife but for me. I need to be able to handle everything I can control. So we see how this will go. Day and a half not on Facebook. It's hard, but I hope my wife will respect that I do not want to know or see anything on there. I need this break for myself. I need to take control of me before I can move on.