Time to share

Its been a week or so since I last wrote anything. There has been so much going on that I wonder how I am catching up on ot all. Just recently I found out my MTC companion and his wife have a blog on here. His name is Michael. Her name is Lila. they met while on their mission. They both finished honourably and then kept in touch after the mission. They have been married now over 11 years and have had no kids. So in catching up with them, I found out they are adopting a boy from a woman who feels it was better to giver her son a better life then what she had. So their blog was all about the work to get him. And they formed a bond with the birth mother that I know was an eternal friendship before they came to earth. This last week Tuesday, Evan was born. They had to drive to Atlanta Georgia to be there for the birth, but just reading what they wrote on the blog was so beautiful. They have ason now they can call their own, take him to the temple to be sealed to them. And the pics they have on their blog are so cute of the little fella. Mike and I didn't always see eye to eye, but I hope he knows that as my brother I loved him no matter what. He was a convert to the church and wanted to go and do like the missionaries did. So he got himself ready and a year and a half after he was baptised, he came on the mission. He brought some of his former life pictures. Those were fun to look at. Long hair, big goat-tee, raggly shirts, one pic even made him look evil. I see him now and I see what i have done in the last several years. I am not the person I was ten years ago. Back then, I choose to live unrightchously and do my own thing. One could say I would have said, Eat drink and be merry, for tomorrow we die and it is well with me. Today i have a different view on that. I like to bring up also that in the scriptures, IF you were to take them literaly, it was ok to commit suicide if you were given to appetite. Says so in Proverbs. In teh Book of Mormon, it says they delighted in fatness. I'm obese, where does that fit in? (No punn intended). In the book, "Miracle of Forgivness" President Kimball had an itnterview with a brother who was trying to come back to the church. He asked the young man several probing questions that made the young man hang his head and tell President Kimball, he didn't think it was so inclusive and felt he had just started to repent. Bishop Stubbs in California and I went through those when I gained my membership back in 2006. He knew as my Bishop knows now, that when i answered them truthfully, I was ready to return. The leaders of the church know what the Lord has for us. They forewarn us of the dangers that lie ahead, if we just harken to their council. One such person is the Patriach. After recieving my blessing, I did read it, and thought, "Oh, some of this may never come to pass." When I think and reflect on what my life has been through the last 10-11 years, I am reminded of what I was told by the Lord, through His servent. Did I follow the council given? I'll be honest and say no. I did not. I have paid for these years and suffered the words Alma has said, the pains of a Damned soul. If God were to come today, during the time I was not following the council, I would have asked that the rocks be covering me. I would not want to meet my maker. Now? I do not know. But i do not fear Him anymore. I know He is there, watching over me along with the other billions/trillions of people on the earth today. I may grumble, I may mumble, I may gripe and moan, but I know he is there. I have just learned to have a voice. I grew up not knowing where my voice was. Sometimes I over step the boundries and pay for it, but I know who I am, I know where I come from and I know why I am here, and where I am going in the life to come. Thats my little snippet for today.