Long thoughts

I have issues, I have anger, I have depression. I need help. These are things I know. My wife told me last night that she had lost her faith. I had my Home teacher come by yesterday morning before Church and tell me I have it in me to pull out of where I am and be the PH he see's in me. He read a little of the lesson in a week or so about going through trials and that no matter what, the Lord gave them to me and if I relied fully on Him, I could wade through it all and make it to the other side a much better person. I have so many issues that it is hard to try to feel them one at a time. They seem to just pile on and plague me until I burst. Then I not only hurt myself I hurt the one who has been on my side the entire time. The one who loves me and believes in me. My wife. Yet she broke down last night and told me that when I told her that I wanted to have my records removed, she was going to follow me. Now it was my turn to listen. To hold her, to comfort her, and tell her that it was going to be ok. Satan is doing everything he can to fight this, us. We will not be lowered to his level. We will rise above it. Chris wants to have the PH in our home, not just when the missionaries or HT are here, but all the time. And that is what I am going to do. I have a PH court on Sunday, and I am going there ready to answer the questions, share my joy, my life and have an answer to hers and my prayers. A seven year long journey that started with simple steps from a Bishop in Idaho who took the time to sit and listen to me and hear my souls complaint, then challenge me to what I must do to return. I feel when I have reached that goal, to have us married and sealed in the Holy Temple, I will go up there and share the joy with them, who were there to help along the way. What a blessed day it will be to walk in the doors of the temple, with my family and be sealed by the Holy Spirit of Promise. No it will not be easy afterwards to continue, but we will have made it to another point in our lives that we are so needing to be at. Well this is all for now. Life is hard, but we are doing it.