Try not, do or do not, there is no try.

Not sure if I ever posted this on here before, but earlier this year, I started a job that I thought I would be doing for some time. First day on the phones, not even half way through my shift, I had a panic attack. And i left my job. Worked elsewhere for a little and then decided to stay home and be a Stay at Home dad, while wife went to work. I began to have panic attacks at home while she was away. It got really bad and I finally went in to see my doctor. Also with the meds I was on, I would have tremors in my hands, arms, head. So doc took me off them and we tried just Tylenol PM to help me sleep. That didn't very well work, so he put me on some different meds that we slowly ramped up until I was at the full strength. It has helped with the panic attacks, I am a little annoyed with simple things, but have had no tremors. Only when I haven't eaten in a while and my blood sugar drops.

So this is what is happening now. I will be starting back at Focus Services, working for their Century Link Business project. Not sure how I am going to handle it, but need to do something to be able to pay for what we have. We need this until we can move to TN next summer. And yes we are going to move there. One way or another. I am hoping any of my resumes I have sent or apps I have filled out will catch someones eyes and they call and offer me a job. Wishful thinking but I know it can happen. And if I am offered a job, I would get out there as soon as possible and work my butt off. Then take a week off to bring my family there.  So we will see.

That is all for now. Need to get some shut eye.