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Tuesday, July 5, 2011

Trials by Faith

I put the fear of God into my wifes 14 year old for stealing money from us only to now have her 12 year old daughter steal from us. So I either start a report with the police and have them with the state investigate why their guardians(grandparents) allow this to happen, and they lose the kids, or try to teach them the right, and they go back to their grandparents and I have basically wasted my breath and time trying to be a good parent to kids that are not mine. Maybe I need to go to the temple and put it before the Lord. I am just mad, hurt, disappointed, dejected. Chris asks where she went wrong, and we had a one sided discussion. She knows what has to be done, and she is afraid. Believe me. Letting go of my daughter was the hardest and scariest thing I ever had to do. I thought fighting to get my blessings back was bad. To lose a child to people who tell you, that you are no longer worthy to be a parent to this child hurts. I would have rather died. Gone to prision. Other than be told that. I know the war will still rage on no matter what we do. I just hope and pray Chris has the strength to let go, hold her head high and move forward. I have my days, I wish it could all go away, but where would my faith be, in a loving God who has blessed me now more than ever. It has been and will be a small sacrifice to let go, for a time. And then when the time is right, we may rejoice againg together and bring back that love. "It won't be easy, but it will be worth it," someone more wiser than me once said. I believe it is true.

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