Day filled with love

Today marked a day that will forever be wonderful to remember for many years to come. I was able to take my wife to the temple to have her go and receive her Endowments. This week has been full of trials and work to get there, but once we entered those doors, the spirit filled our hearts, and our minds and brought peace to our souls. Phoebe who all we hear is fussing all day long and night, just sat with me and looked around while waiting for my wife to complete her washing and anointings and be clothed in the garments. Phoebe just looked around with her bright eyes and smiled at me several times. I think she knew where she was and felt safe and secure there. I then went in to go get dressed while Chris went and fed her. Afterward we both went to our instruction time and waited to go in. It was so wonderful to be there, and to partake of the joy in temple work. Chris looked beautiful in her white dress. As we went into the Celestial Room, I felt a brief but knowing assurety that mom was there and that she had a lot of work to do and could not be with us long. It was Chris' day and it was busy. The temple closes for 2 weeks for cleaning. So now we get to wait until next month for our sealing. Just what a great day.

Trials by Faith

I put the fear of God into my wifes 14 year old for stealing money from us only to now have her 12 year old daughter steal from us. So I either start a report with the police and have them with the state investigate why their guardians(grandparents) allow this to happen, and they lose the kids, or try to teach them the right, and they go back to their grandparents and I have basically wasted my breath and time trying to be a good parent to kids that are not mine. Maybe I need to go to the temple and put it before the Lord. I am just mad, hurt, disappointed, dejected. Chris asks where she went wrong, and we had a one sided discussion. She knows what has to be done, and she is afraid. Believe me. Letting go of my daughter was the hardest and scariest thing I ever had to do. I thought fighting to get my blessings back was bad. To lose a child to people who tell you, that you are no longer worthy to be a parent to this child hurts. I would have rather died. Gone to prision. Other than be told that. I know the war will still rage on no matter what we do. I just hope and pray Chris has the strength to let go, hold her head high and move forward. I have my days, I wish it could all go away, but where would my faith be, in a loving God who has blessed me now more than ever. It has been and will be a small sacrifice to let go, for a time. And then when the time is right, we may rejoice againg together and bring back that love. "It won't be easy, but it will be worth it," someone more wiser than me once said. I believe it is true.